So now you know...

Some of my friends and family out there on the blogosphere may be highly confused about what is going on with me and my family. I have avoided sharing my personal life and personal problems on the internet. What goes onto the internet is there forever. I don't need my problems to be recalled forever. Yet outside my control my friends and family have been included in the drama that is my life.

So... I have filed for Divorce from Johnny. I do pray that he is "truly" repentant. I am letting the Lord into my heart to guide my life. And I do feel peace and confidence in my choices. Johnny and I had very different backgrounds going into our marriage. We had at the time the same goals and desires for the future. We worked at our marriage just as everyone, having hard times and good. As the future approached and we were in the thickets our priorities changed and we no longer meshed well. I still believe the Lord wants each of us to be part of an Eternal Family. I know that is the point of coming to this earth. But I also know that we need to feel safe and loved and respected. I feel guided that I need to be away from Johnny to feel these things.

I am so grateful for all the experiences I have had. They have all helped me to grow and given me an opportunity to feel my Saviors love. I have felt his love and peace through so many of you and I am forever grateful for that.