Flirt?

So, I am not divorced yet and will not begin dating or seeking out dates until my divorce is final but I thought I should maybe hone up on how to flirt. I have been watching some of the college students around town and I don't think I will be flirting with a grown man the way an 18 yeaqr old flirts with a 18 year old so then how... I had a friend tell me after her divorce she liked to use online dating sites because she could flirt in her jamas and turn off the computer when she was done. So last night I was bored, on the computer, and the curious thought of how to flirt came into my mind. I looked up a dating site, looked though some profiles, then saw a button, "flirt with me" so I thought I would try it out I clicked thinkingI would be able to leave a comment such as you can on facebook, a flirtatious comment to be specific. What it took me to instead was a list of prewritten 'flirts' that you could click on and have emailed to the person. Man If I knew it was that easy to flirt why would I even have to think about it. Doesn't technology make live so much easier!
I may not need your advice for sometime, but I have been a boy scout before and It is best to always 'be prepared,' so if you have any really good 'flirts' that I could copy and past into an email once I do start on my dating journey, please leave them in the comments.
Life is so great. It is not always what we expect but there is always a way ahead that will lead to happiness, even when you are surrounded by gunk.
If I don't get another chance, Merry Christmas!

Happy Birthday 2 year old

E turns 2 on Thursday. She is so much fun. Her purpose in life is to make people happy. Lately she has felt the shame of "No, No." and it breaks my heart when her smile turns upside down into a frown. She tells us when she has gone potty, she calls everyone by name and it is so sweet. She loves to watch Dora and will sing along. Her favorite Christmas song is Bing Crosby's Hawaiian Christmas song. She loves to wear her boots, and she is so kind to her big sister. I could not imagine my life without her. I love her so much.

With Santa and Mrs. Claus

Looking at the lights on Temple Square. It was so fun, we ran into my cousin Heather as her school choir was performing in the visitor center. It was so fun to listen to her sing.

E got Two potties at her birthday party, one for her and one for her baby.

Grandma bought E a pretty princess cake that glowed.

J all snuggled up at Temple square. I love her smile.

Family Rivalry as we watched the game

Sledding at Grandma and Grandpa's house

Cousins are the best. All the Vernon Granbabies.

So now you know...

Some of my friends and family out there on the blogosphere may be highly confused about what is going on with me and my family. I have avoided sharing my personal life and personal problems on the internet. What goes onto the internet is there forever. I don't need my problems to be recalled forever. Yet outside my control my friends and family have been included in the drama that is my life.

So... I have filed for Divorce from Johnny. I do pray that he is "truly" repentant. I am letting the Lord into my heart to guide my life. And I do feel peace and confidence in my choices. Johnny and I had very different backgrounds going into our marriage. We had at the time the same goals and desires for the future. We worked at our marriage just as everyone, having hard times and good. As the future approached and we were in the thickets our priorities changed and we no longer meshed well. I still believe the Lord wants each of us to be part of an Eternal Family. I know that is the point of coming to this earth. But I also know that we need to feel safe and loved and respected. I feel guided that I need to be away from Johnny to feel these things.

I am so grateful for all the experiences I have had. They have all helped me to grow and given me an opportunity to feel my Saviors love. I have felt his love and peace through so many of you and I am forever grateful for that.

Halloween

Here is a small snapshot of our Halloween. We went to boo at the zoo, the pumpkin walk in North Logan, a ward party, a fun party at Katie's, and trick or treating with Grandma. We were so busy we didn't get to carve pumpkins until tonight.

I love you so much

Shake Rattle and Roll

We have had a busy summer and I haven't blogged since the start. I will play catchup in a minute. First this week. On Wednesday morning MY little family and my parents went up to Wyoming to run the snake river with the Rimasch Family. We got to use our new pop-up trailer for the second time and it was fabulous.

1. Shake: Wednesday night we went into Jackson Hole to look at the galleries and have some dinner. While waiting for the gun show to start we felt a 4.5 earth quake. I had never felt one before. Mark said he saw a pair of fuzzy dice in someones car swinging back and forth. My mom said it felt like she was on a dance floor. I just thought I was light headed and a little dizzy.

2. Rattle: Thursday night after dinner my parents went with Mark and Sylvia to get some ice down the canyon. Holly and I were cleaning up dinner. (Yummy dutch oven fried chicken. a Kelly Specialty) She asked where to dump the chicken fat. I told her the fire so we could burn off the smell so the bears wouldn't come searching for it. Just at that moment I heard a rustle or 'rattle' of the bushes, looked over, and saw a large brawn figure ten yards away. The light was getting low and My heart started to race. as I gasped it moved again and a large rack of moose antlers popped up in front of my. Johnny was walking over with the kids and I yelled to them, "Hey you guys lets all look at the moose from inside the tent trailer." It startled and ran back. it played this game going back and forth for 15 minutes. then Johnny yelled run! Holly and I scooped up the kids and ran into the trailer as the moose can straight for us. Johnny got it to dodge around the trailer. It headed for the Rimasch's camp next. Johnny ran over to tell Natalie and Candice to get their kids in the cars. On Natalie's way to her car the moose came charging between the two parked cars right for her and her little boy. they ran and hid behind Candice's tent and the moose headed right in front of it then out toward the road.

3. Roll: On Friday we were on our last or six runs down the Snake River. We were hitting ever hole just perfect! Were were goofing around and having so much fun. at Ropes we hit the wave dead on as Shawn rode the bow standing up. Our boat bucked and folded. As Shawn went flying in my dad and I went flying out. in all the confusion the boat headed for the rocks and away from my Dad and me. We started to ride down stream. I have fallen out of the boat but never for that much time. It was o.k. at first but then the waves started coming closer together. It started pushing me under over and over again and I couldn't make it up to breath. I started to panic a little and I remembered Mark said, "Hold on to your paddle no matter what" I figured I had succeeded at holding onto my paddle I could get back above the water too. I kicked a little harder came up and heard my sweet husband yell get the rope. He pulled me aboard as Mark pulled my dad out of the water. both of us wheezing from lungs full of water and shaking from adrenaline. It was Still an awesome ride and I can't wait for the Rimasch's to invite us along again but I want to ride "Ropes" in the boat from now on!

Thanks for the fun weekend. It is fun to make memories with family and good friends.

Good Morning Sunshine

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ASHES ASHES WE ALL FALL DOWN!

So, when we moved in to the new house and the snow began to melt Johnny and I began a debate of what fun think to put in our back yard. My first choice was a swing set but johnny sternly protests. So then I tried to talk him into a trampoline. He said no again. I wore him down enough that when my parents were in town he said, I want no part of it but do what you have to do." I think that meant yes I can go buy a trampoline so I did. We set it up this morning. I didn't read the instructions so we had to re set it up three times. When we finally got the mat all attached to the springs, I realize we still had not gotten step one correctly. So, after some angry scowls we decided we would jimmy rig this year and fix it next fall when we take it down for the winter. We ended up pushing it next to a fence and bolting one of the enclosure pole it. It works. We have had so much fun all day. E learned to sing Ashes we all fall down (see cute video). She loved how fast she could run. Johnny even tried a few tricks and flips. We tried sleeping out on it before it began to sprinkle. It was good the rain came. There would have been no sleeping.

New Baby!

We went to SLC today to see Amber and Kyles new baby. He is so beautiful. My Girls love him. They are so tender with him. E is a little less tender but tries. Thankfully Amber understands and loves her anyway. Kyle was so kind to play with J even though he was sleeping on his feet. Looking at them makes me reminisce about what it is like to be a new parent and go without sleep. It is a serious adjustment to make.

J got a haircut. She doesn't like for me to put it in ponies so we cut it short to stop the arguments. I would love for her to have long flowing hair, but it is usually just raga-muffin. This will be better (i need to keep chanting that.)

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Smiley faces

My girls have loved their little computers lately. E especially. She walks around with it, sets it up, works on it a few minutes then moves on to the next surface.

She was cheesing for the camera tonight. She is getting big so fast. She learns a new word everyday. Her latest phrase has been "sissa down" or "sissa no," what ever command her big sister was shouting at her.

We went to the Aquarium in Draper our last trip to SLC. My girls really enjoyed it. We will definitely make a return visit this summer. The penguins were fun to watch. It was a much better penguin exhibit then the zoo. Jorryn thought we were CRAZY for sticking our hands in the Ray tank.

"Whaz up frog"

• Holly has been watching my girls while I work for the last couple months. It has been so amazing. I want this all the time. I will have many many tears when she moves at the end of May. It has been so nice for my girls to spend the day at their home with their toys and their friends. I think I will have to find a way to make this continue. It will cost me more but it seems irreplaceable. Hopefully I can be home in a year or two anyway. I never know.
• My job has been very busy. I have had a ton of meetings in the last few weeks. I freaked out the second week of April and had some panic tears but told myself I can do it and it has just seemed to flow. I really haven't been stressed in the day to day. I think their is something divine buoying me up because it seemed overwhelming weeks ago.
• We are so excited to see our best friends from Hurricane tomorrow when they come up to Logan.
• Amber is going to have her Baby sometime between now and next week. I am so excited. I jump everytime my phone makes a peep.
• We bought produce with Bountiful Baskets last week and LOVED it. We have been eating Healthy from scratch food. It is easier to decide what to eat because I have an ingredient I want to use. If anyone has any good swish chard recipes let me know. Tomorrow I am making a Salmon swiss chard quiche for dinner with a roasted pineapple for dessert. Yum.

SO BIG

My girls are getting so big! E can answer questions, say thank you, Hey dad and sister. She can "go get __" for us. She will come sit on my head when she is poopy and when I ask her she says yes.

We went to our local city easter egg hunt ad she screamed and screamed because she didn't want to pick up eggs and I was trying to convince her too (they had cash prizes!!!) Just like her mom, dad, and big sister, if its not her idea it is no good.

The girls got a Sand box from the easter bunny. They have been playing in it ever since. E thought it was like the other easter treats and decided to eat the sand. Yuck!

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more our house

Here are some more pictures of our cute house if anyone wanted to see.

We are happy to have guests if any of our family or friends want to visit Cache Valley

our bedroom

The front room/book room. (think we have way to many)

The front of our house. (No snow!)

Our basement family room

our guest bedroom

toy room

One of the upstairs bedrooms

Master bathroom and E eating a shoe.

fruit salad YUM!

WEEE! This was our latest trip to the zoo. E loved 1 2 3 WEE!

Last night I made fruit salad and my family love it. the girls couldn't help eating it with their hands instead of their spoons. but it turned messy when someone yelled AHH!

This is our girls dressed up for the Dr Suess night at my school last week. J is Pinkalicious. We decided E was Lynos from Peanuts because she would drag her blanket everywhere.